||[Jan. 5th, 2005|07:27 pm]
Sorry for my lack of presence here.
I've been busy between Church, school, Josh... everything!
I walked into school the other day, and this slutty girl comes up to me and claimed that she got "raped" by josh after his Football game. Whatever, bitch! My man don't rape nobody, that is a sin against God! That is exactly what I told her. I told her she probably got so trashed at the game and got raped by one of the other football players and she is just saying it was Josh. This girl asked josh to go out with her repeatedly and constantly pushed up against him in the halls and Josh always pushed her and said "No, I don't date stupid sluts like you!" I think she is lying and saying that he raped her to get even with him for saying no to her all those times. Whoever she got raped by, she was asking for it, wearing those skimpy, impure outfits to school all the time - skirts above the knees and non-button-up shirts - All in red, white and pink! Colors like white don't suit an unholy slut like her.. Who does she think she is?
Anyways, enough of that trailor trash...
Josh took me on vacation to some lake in Utah for my birthday which was on Christmas. It was nice, but one thing that bugged me about the whole trip, Josh kept trying to have sex with me all the time.
Now I thought he was a nice religious man, and I still like to think he is, but I love him and told him he will have to marry me first. He said "Okay love".
We got back and went to Josh's brother's New Year's eve party. I sinned against God that night and asked Josh to go get me a beer. Josh said we should go upstairs and drink it together, so we did. The rest of the night is a blurred memory to me. I woke up dizzy and my legs and my chest was sore. I had all of this sticky stuff in between my legs, too. I thought nothing of it. I rolled over, and Josh was gone. He had work early in the morning, so his much older brother drove me home.
His older brother is SO WIERD! He winked at me and said "I had such a GREAT time with you AND Josh last night! Take care, gorgeous!" I was like "yeah, whatever, bye"
I ran in my room and prayed and went to sleep.
It's January 5th and I still haven't heard from Josh. I hope he is ok!